The good news is that the anti-psychotic is working! Ms. P had nearly 24 hours of voices-free life today. They came back a little bit this evening, but she's only been taking the drug for two days. It takes longer for it to really get into the system, and it may be that she needs a slightly higher dose, but it's working. When they came back this evening, the difference between no-voices and voices was so dramatic that she jumped and said, "oh my God! That's awful!" So things are suddenly, dramatically better, and they'll continue to be so. It's such a relief.
The bad news is that the friends we stayed with are having a very hard time together right now. I can only watch and feel sad and hope they find ways through it.
The ugly is that our planned social event yesterday was not nearly as much fun as I had hoped. We're in a spiritual group that formed because we recognized that it already existed among our several relationships, and we're supposed to show up together to one another's spiritual lives. We did a little bit of that, but there was also a lot of shop-talk about the local politics of pagan organizations. And frankly, I couldn't care less. I hate that shit. What I like and what I like about this group is people, and people's relationships. That's what I like.
But this morning I got to spend a whole chunk of time designing a beaded ... thing, playing with sharpie markers and bead graph paper, and it made me so happy. So happy. So while I'm exhausted, and yesterday kind of sucked, and I feel unprepared for the week, I feel more grounded than I have in a long time.
So glad to hear that the anti-psychotic is working! What a wonderful reaction to have. Hope it continues to go well!
Posted by: New Kid on the Hallway | February 06, 2005 at 09:34 PM